An all time high and an all time low

Today I hit an all time high as well as an all time low.  It was enough to get me blogging again which apparently hasn't happened since 2010.   Makes me sad to think I haven't  recorded anything from 2011.   Let's just say it was a year of transition.


But today I have a need to go public with my all time high and my all time low because I hope it motivates me.       


Here is the deal - recently I have been falling asleep on the couch only to wake, stumble the stairs to bed and then struggle to wake in the morning.   Projects around the house are left incomplete.   Hobbies like photography and reading are a distant memory.  That's an all time low for my energy level.


Then today I stepped on the scales... something I have been avoiding because deep down I knew the truth.    Staring back at me was a number that is an all time high for me (sans pregnancy).  


Not completely giving up on exercise, earlier this week I hurt my back during a jog... the cause was from being out of shape.  The injury even interrupted my work schedule... another all time low.


I laced up my tennis shoes this morning and decided  on a walk/jog to take it easy on my back but refusing  to  accept the weight on the scale.      "What needs to change?" kept nagging me as I spent 45 minutes alone with my labored breathing.


 I work for  the Y -- an organization that prides itself on healthy living as one of its three primary pillars.   I spend most of my professional time marketing the journey to health to other people.    We use words like "energy makeover" and "feel your best."  I want an energy makeover.  I want to feel my best. I want the body, mind, spirit balance the organization I love champions every day.


Recording my journey to health and balance is for my motivation.  If you have some words of encouragement, I will take them.  If you want to join me, I will welcome you.   


Here is to making my all time high and my all time low mean something completely different.  




   

ella stanley | myBrainshark

ella stanley myBrainshark

Getting Older

It's trite. "Time Flies." "They grow up so fast." "It seems like just yesterday." All of them. Trite. We need a new phrase that holds the magnitude of what these statements mean.

Today our oldest started middle school, our middle 4th grade and our youngest 2nd. I have been trying to find the words to describe what I am feeling.

I told a friend today that I started having kids at age 12 ... I meant that I felt too young to have a "tween." It was the wrong description. I know because of the blank stare.

How about:

• I cried today because I realized I embarrassed my child, by just being seen with her
• I thought by sharing the memories of my first day of 6th grade would be a bonding experience with my child. It wasn't; she didn't relate to my story about my new "Jessica McClintock" jumper that I wore on my first day of school.
• I sang along to one of their favorite songs on the ipod, they stopped singing.

It's OK. I know I did it to my Mom, too. I guess I should see it as a right of passage. They still said prayers with us tonight. They still kissed us goodnight. They still told us they loved us.

Oh, If Only I Could Freeze Time.... I know.... trite.

Change is hard

Change is hard. I know, I know, without change there is no progress, without change, there is no improvement, without change, nothing changes. But the bottom line is Change is Hard.

I trust honest, transparent people. I don't trust people that say they embrace change and that change doesn't scare them. I don't believe those people. I don't trust those people.

Change happens. I get it. I am living it. I am moving along with it. Still hard,but necessary.

I am stronger today than I was yesterday. I am a better person, too. Its because of, you guessed it, change.

http://socialnomics.net/2009/08/11/statistics-show-social-media-is-bigger-than-you-think/

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neglect

I have neglected my blog. While visiting on facebook, reading blogs for work ( and some for fun), tweeting on twitter, my blog has been neglected. I decided to enter this social media world as a communication test and have as a result been sucked in by it all.

If you believe the trends, then you believe people are receiving information via the web, only. People are socializing and educating themselves via websites. bloggers and social communities. Traditional media ( tv, radio, newspapers) are a thing of the past. Advertisers and marketers are are looking to social communities to be their saving grace.

This is what I think: There will always be a place and need for real journalist. News is not what we choose to read or find interesting in someone's blog. News is important information to keep us safe, informed, engaged and involved in matters that might not be our choice of topics, but necessary none the less. I also believe just as many people are tuning in and opening up newspapers as they are reading status post on social sites. But since advertisers are funneling their money in web, traditional media can't financially survive. Real news outlets are what we will turn to in time of crisis.

I am your basic work at home, thirty-something Mom, living in the suburbs driving a mini van with three children and a loving husband. My day dream escapes range from life in the big city to home on the range. I think I am normal. I engage in social communities but it doesn't have an impact on me like opening up the Sunday morning paper. I don't hold bloggers to the same standard as journalists.

I am not calling social media a passing trend. It is not and it will continue to evolve. I am also not ready to call it quits on traditional media.

For the time being I will try to experience it all. I want to take note of this society shift and being able to refer to it someday.

Oh Shoot! It has been an hour since I checked my facebook... better sign off!